一个人的脸上有太多的笑 ，是因为心里有太多的痛， 因为伤了 ，所以伪装

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，好多人都会羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨!

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！ 如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们

My Days with :D and XD and =D

Many things have happend these past few days...

School started...

21st September 2010
Tuesday

Nobody had any mood today for practise... So... practise was kinda... Cancled

22nd September 2010
Wednesday

Finally i gave up :D

23rd September 2010
Thursday

Today he hit the school wall while crying during math time... His hands were bleeding :(
He came to my house for movie.. but end up i slept during the movie! OMG

24th September 2010
Friday

Finally we practise finish the whole dance! and it looked great too :D Totally satisfied =D

25th September 2010

Weee~ We finished our performance =D It wasn't as great as a expected... BUT Kenny did a great job XD
and.. thanks Wei Yong for making this event possible ^^

26th September 2010

Boohoo :( I can't go to Yumi's youth program.. Dad said Jo cheng sek, last minute ask me to ffk them T.T hou xiong gam qing geh jek!

Wedding Photo

i was just browsing thru Facebook and found Yan Lee jiejie's profile :D

Weee~ Found her Wedding Photo Album~

She's so pretty ~!! OMG. i wanna be her XD

Sorry Yan Lee jiejie for "Kidnaping" your pictures XD

Just wanna show the world how pretty you are XD

This is Yan Lee jiejie and her Hubby (no idea what name guy)

Nice Piano XD

Pretty :D

Heh :3 pretty =)

I Love this <3

My Favorite Pic!! XD

Heh :3

My Days <3

14/09/2010

Today my brothers and sisters went to Melaka... really ngm guan ~ Basketball court only left few of these basketball freaks =S  Well then, we did went swimming after dance practise too XD

15/09/2010

Today my brothers and sisters came back from Melaka... i also dunoo why don't have the Happy Feel X3
Today didn't practise dance... what a boring day =S

16/09/2010

We went to Galaxy for trainning because beside the place got people using dewan, didn't want to disturb them =3
After that we went for swimming~ omg.. my "friend" come i also dare to go down =X

17/09/2010

Today is my lazy day XD Eat,Drink,Play,Fun (in chinese) ... After that we went for Yan Lee jiejie's one day before wedding day XD Yan Lee jiejie very leng lui <3

18/09/2010

Whole day didn't sleep O_O Me, Zhao and Tok Zai, 3 night ghost didn't sleep... but then Tok Zai gave up and went to sleep at 5am XD Me and Zhao straight went for Basketball XP At night i wasn't sleepy also XD 2am only sleep . Heh :3

19/09/2010

Nothing special today... went to Empire Subang Jaya for shopping after Church <3 OMG... Bread for Breakfast and Lunch.. we had lunch at The Loaf. After that i had a basketball match with Ken, end up... 10 over 3. OMG T.T
i can't show my face already. Sorry Sifu, let you down ><

20/09/2010

which is TODAY ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYUICHI KUN~!!!! HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!! sorry i can't celebrate it for you =[ I promise to celebrate with you next year! Happy Birthday <3

Otanjobi Omedeto gozaimasu... Kaori-san ♥

I guess... this is the best day in my whole life... =)

Happy Sweet 16 Kaori-san ♥

Had my birthday party last night...Although it turned out not like what i expected... But everything was fine in the end =)

Thanks guys for comin to my Party =) Really appriciate it ^^

Thanks Yami, Leon, Shelly, Arial,  James, Julian, Aunty Sally, Celina, Chris, Ken, Hui Si, Ryuichi, Mommy and Daddy for the Presents! ^^ I love them a lot!!!

i am always me and i will stay this way.

“I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me.”

I am me and that's all i can be. No more no less, don't second guess.
You may not like me but that's ok, cause this is me and how i'll stay.

Happy Belated Birthday

Happy Belated Birthday my dearest Sister <3

Hope you enjoyed the day =)
Sorry i didn't buy you presents...
because i was lack of money...
if you wish... i would tie a ribbon around my neck and give myself to you =P
haha.. but.. i better not steal Chuan San's idea XDD

OMG. i had a really weird dream ><
don't wanna tell it out here...
but... i wish that he really did that...
omg.. what am i thinking... ='(

Dinosaur ♥

building a castle in the SKY

It's the starting of the Holidays... =(

Clouds are flying everywhere...

building shapes in the sky...

Just like me... *Building a castle in the sky*

I miss the sunset we watched together...

i miss the times when we didn't have anything to bother...

i miss the times when you said i was cute :P

I miss you. That's all i can say....

Watching the Clouds...TOGETHER...

I wish we could watch the clouds together again... =)

even thou it's an awkward momment...

i loved every second of it <3

What happend to you these few days...?

Looked so down... =(

You've bring me into the world of rainbows...

you made my world...

you created my fairytale...

but i was too stupid...

Stupid enough to leave you...

I don't know my feeling right now...

i just want to hug you...

wanna hug and never let go...