30062143

how many days have it been since we fought ? 

i miss our relationship, our friendship. 

how? nothing can be done TT

Tomorrow is singing competition already :) 

me, sure joining already ! how can i miss this chance xD

This year, there seems to be many contestants :/ 

and they are little kids ! TT why :(

Good Luck every contestants !

May the best man wins :D or woman ^^

i think that I've changed a lot :)

just that everything came to me at once,

i just went Blurred? or should i say, i was Blurrify :/

i guess i just went back to my old lifestyle :D

what is important in my life? 

Games, Basketball, and SLEEP :) 

others came in second ~ 

Today mom took my report card :/ 

oh goodness, mom kept complain about the SENI thing.

damn, she just don't know how much we need to do ! 

after taking, me, Dyland and Alwin went for Tea :)

after that we went to Cool Cat  :D 

thanks Dyland for teaching me how to Dota :D

my hero rocks :DD 

I've been thinking, have he moved on? :)

it's already a month+ since we separated :/

can he move on that easily? Guess So :)

did i move on? i don't know .

so yeah, nothing special ~

my result sucks ! heh :]

My HengDai a.k.a my GAY darling ~

TT 2 days already!! where you go~ i miss you so~

seems like it's been forever that you've been gone~

PLEASE COME BACK TT  

oih~ i miss you larh wehh :/

come back ! come back ! come back !

27062307

嘻嘻~ 我有了新的Dear ♥ 
我的Gay DearDear ♥ Benedict Wong Alios

认识新的朋友, 真的很开心 ^^
人又可爱, 又好笑 xD
照片知道不是他真人来的啦~ ><
但是人也不错嘛~ 


他是我的 Gay DearDear, SuiZai, SoZaii, HengDai ~
很多咧 xD 我们不能kiss 因为 HengDai 的关系 xD
呵呵~ HengDai~ 我♥你 ~ xD

歌唱比赛差不多到了~ 

最近因为很多事情发生, 所以很多plans都换掉了~

今年我和姐姐唱~  如果的事 :)~

姐姐~ 我们要加油哦~!! 

今天, 没什么特别的事...

在学校也不就是说说笑笑 ~

明天带seni去做~ 

过后跟姐姐练歌 ♥ 

这个星期五, 歌唱比赛~

蛮紧张下的~ >< 但是怎样都是最后一年了~

就唱埋它咯~ xD

-27062307-

22060105

不要以为还存在，就永远不会失去．

咳.. 还是算了 :/ 真的想不到东西了 !

不知道该信还是不该信... 

像师父说的, 顺其自然 :D 把以前的东西就忘掉 :) 事情会尽量的解决.

谢谢师父的这一番话 :D 

我的师父是谁...? 不能告诉你们 ;)

因为他对我来说是非常重要的 :D

不希望有人做我的师妹师弟. 

no reservation! XD

最近都pk了... :/  还要还妈咪钱...

为了钱, 我什么都肯做.. but have your limits!

很想没次放学就去做工, 管它是rm4一小时都好, 我都肯做 TT 

我真的很需要钱, 不然 7月15号, 不用出了 -.-

讲起7月15号~ 就是我们姐妹早一天的一周年纪念 

四姐妹都买了一样的衣服, 有hello kitty 的样子 :D

打算去 KLCC 走街, 去garden 拍照 过后去Aquarium :D

虽然四个一起穿也蛮奇怪下~ 但是谁叫我们是姐妹咧 :P

希望当天出街成功! :D 姐妹万岁!! :D

最近都迷上了dota :D 杀杀杀, 又跑跑跑 XD

每次都看着哥哥玩, 还问埋一大堆东西.. 被骂 >

开始要喜欢dota, 不是我要发桥跟男生玩..请不要误会

我要开始喜欢玩dota是因为看男生们有事烦, 没心情都是用dota来发泄 :D

越玩越pro :D liew boon huat, 迟早我会 pro 过你的! XD

至于sdo啊, counter strike 啊~ 闲9了 -.-

也不是哪几枪  :/  好像什么game 都给我玩过了 -.-

生活真闲... 闲!!!!

学校的事呢, 就最近都喜欢跟syazley 他们玩 gu ji bang :D

喜欢和他们玩因为是男是女都照打~ 哈哈哈~ 我sot了. 喜欢给人打 XD

跟某人分手了很久, 今天看到他送某人回

过后孤泠泠自己走回家.. 可怜咯~ 

哈哈~ 再也没有女生像我将伟大, 用脚车送你去lrt 了 :P

你慢慢送别人回家啦 XD 哈哈哈... 

就这样吧~ 看, 我的生活就是那么闲 ~!!!

没练舞了, 只是有歌唱比赛... 

我还没跟shelly 练过~ 当天唱自己的就对了 XD

然后欣欣呢, 我们每次唱到一半就会换歌唱

所以是永远练不好的 XD

算啦~ 都是最后一年, 就玩埋它　

赢还是输都是一样的　对我没价值

唱歌好可以上大学吗？　哈哈哈　

如果是将，我现在都在练着歌了

也不会在这里讲多多废话

师父睡觉了　我也该去睡了

晚安大家！　记得要想我哦～

21062021

 虽然对方都没有说, 但是都知道对方都不爽对方


我真的不知道你在想什么... 因为这件事, 我们就变到这样了


你我的关系都陌生了 ... 


我用钱, 不是要跟你增加感情 ... 
是因为我知道你喜欢, 我不用钱来买感情的!


我伤到你, 我和你道歉. 
我知道, 一个道歉是不能换来个没关系的


我肯把所有都放下, 也不想失去我们之间的友情
你呢? 你肯吗...?


说实话, 我每次都觉得我被你用着...
说明是朋友, 有事就说嘛... 
什么都不告诉我, 你想我怎样了解你


我知道你一定在想着, 你不需要我了解你
而且觉得我说的都是错的...


但是我说的都是真心话, 很希望你明白
我真的不想再次有这个冷战了....


谢谢你每次在我难时都会安慰我
我知道我什么都不能做...


尽量把你弄开心, 我知道不只是那只熊可以弄你开心
还有很多东西我都不知道的...


我不聪明, 但是也不笨
不要讲我误会, 我乱想...
将明显的事, 很多人都看得出了.




很想大家一起聚在一起
一起把事情解决掉.

19062332

看着手中的日记
回想我们的点滴
我常常问自己为什么失去你


你曾经的关心早就远远离去
我还能在原地想等等等下去


在乎你爱到嘴边却永远说不出口
害怕就这样我们从此就没有以后


紧握的拳头
我默默陪你左右
你却没看见我的温柔


Baby 没有人能比我还爱你
Cause you should be my lady
鼓起勇气却还是来不及


你永远不知道 那些玩笑
藏着真心到底有多少
but baby 就在下一秒
祝福声中你却走向他的怀抱


wedding dress, oh 你纯白的wedding dress
(我该放弃了吗?)
wedding dress, oh 为他穿的wedding dress


oh no~


你笑得很甜蜜
我心里下着雨
过去就像情侣就差一句在一起
我呆呆地以为你已渐渐熟()
原来是我太刻意天天贴近你


以为你是我最后现实却逼着我低头
在心中我不后悔因为至少我爱过


沉沉的胸口
忍着隐隐的伤口
我努力微笑为你弹奏


Baby 没有人能比我还爱你
Cause you should be my lady
鼓起勇气却还是来不及


你永远不知道 那些玩笑
藏着真心到底有多少
but baby 就在下一秒
祝福声中你却走向他的怀抱


wedding dress, oh 你纯白的wedding dress
(我该放弃了吗?)
wedding dress, oh 为他穿的wedding dress


oh no~




时间在这时止住
戒指将你套住
一定要过得幸福
我才会服输


虽然我尽了力
要忘记你
删除如梦的曾经


oh~


你永远不知道 那些玩笑
藏着真心到底有多少
but baby 就在下一秒
祝福声中你却走向他的怀抱


wedding dress, oh 你纯白的wedding dress
(我该放弃了吗?)
wedding dress, oh 为他穿的wedding dress


oh no~


这个是华语版的. 被人改的


看了他的MV, 把自己最爱的人, 送给了所谓的兄弟
看了这个MV, 自己傻傻的在那边哭... 
有试过的人一定知道他的感受 


心痛 :(

18062325

在茫茫人海中, 只有你最懂我
虽然我们的关系越来越差
不过我还是一样的那么爱你

谢谢你一直以来都陪伴着我
开始的时候, 你就陪我癫
伤心的时候, 你就陪我哭
生气的时候, 你陪我发泄
哭泣的时候, 你会抱着我
无聊的时候, 你陪我聊天
出街的时候, 你会牵我手

我很想一辈子都和你在一起 :)

郑紫欣, 我♥你... 永远都是我的好姐妹 ♥


紫欣, 谢谢你
每次你伤心,难过... 我只会说几句话
我从来都没有安慰好你


现在你幸福了, 我很开心 :)
因为, 我相信... 他是不会伤害你的
如果他伤你, 他会伤得更惨 :))


好希望, 我们还有一天
可以一起再去唱k, 
穿一样的衣服, 
吃一样的食物, 
喝一样的水,
说一样的话题,
想一样的东西,
有一样的兴趣 :)


你是在我人生最重要的一个角色
没有了你, 是不可能会有今天的我


你, 虽然不是我亲生的姐姐...
不过, 我们都比亲姐妹爱对方


姐姐, 谢谢你这辈子照顾我 TT
对不起 我有时弄到你很烦
你不说, 我也会知道...


TT 如果我弄到你哭了
就真的对不起... 因为我自己也哭了 TT


姐姐, 希望我们永远都在一起
永远都做最好的姐妹...


我爱你 ♥

17062135

最近我真的很累...是否老了?? 还是太多东西想了... :(

今天去CC~心满意足了 :)

谢谢liew boon 教我玩Dota和CounterStrike

开始的喜欢玩Dota :)) 

对不起大家~如果今天的我,整天都苦着脸...

我真的很累...已经很尽力的微笑了 :)

今天CC过后发生了一些事...

咳~真的是吓到我 TT

最怕朋友XX!

有些事以为说开了就没事，其实结果还是一样的难过。

CC后我们去Jusco 走街

吃Mcdonald, 玩游戏! 结果还是我输了 :(

谢谢老婆阻止我吃辣椒 TT

后我们就去叮叮场~ (打机)

用了rm10...但是还是值得的啦 :))

过后大家都累了...找Dylan Sku就回家 :D

到了Ampang我又去打篮球...

一时晒一时不晒 :/

但是也没什么精神打 :X

累啊!!!!!!

很想明天给我睡一整天 TT

不过,星期六是我最忙的一天 :'(

早上~补习 >;(

下午~Aikido D:

晚上~打机!! 

咳~~~i am so busy :/

17062109

其实.，我很累了.­

其实，一直没有人能够懂我，我习惯了假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有....­

我不知道自己到底想怎样­

有时候­

我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的.­

可是没有人知道那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装­

我可以让自己很快乐很快乐­

可是却找不到快乐的源泉，只会让自己傻笑­

不习惯把事跟很多人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我­

其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通通遗忘­

我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来...­

可我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞­

黑夜来袭，周围的空气很躁.....­

一个人爬在窗前，对着窗外的人群发呆.....­

也不知道自己在想什么..­想很多很多，想到头痛，想到心痛。

怀念过去？仅此而已..­？

其实我很累了，真的想放下所有...­

何时发现我不 在爱写日记，即使心里有好多事，我也宁愿憋在心里，不是我不愿说，而是我疲惫了...­

挂了FB 却不上线­

挂了FB 却不聊天­

只是反复着打开空间，关闭空间..­

何时­

我不再喜欢追逐打闹，却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳­

何时­

我沉默的不再爱说话.却很想找个知心朋友向她倾诉所有....­

我喜欢在很静很静的黑夜，又害怕静静的黑夜。关了灯让寂寞把我包裹，却又害怕黑暗...­

我也会偶而想和朋友聚聚..­

或开心­

或失望.­

我也会偶尔找寻发泄的方法­

或有效­

或更伤­

偶而也会寂寞的拿起手机翻开通信录，一遍一遍的.....却不知道该打给谁.......

当自己无助的时候，会想到，该怎么办 到底怎么办，去和朋友说？

又能和谁说。

亲爱的自己、醒醒吧。学会去承受。学会去面对现实吧。

告诉自己要成为一个现实的人，一定要变得现实。

16062122

你选择离开了...

那个是我在面子书开的一个专页
是因为他而开的...

但是我并没有加人进去 :/
因为我不想别人知道, 我曾经有多难放下他...

10061159

i just need some Melody of Peace to calm me down

Today is Christopher's birthday :)
so, Happy Birthday Chris! Hope you had a wonderful sweet 16 . !
although me and you aren't really that close anymore,
thou i still call you my Sifu :) thanks for teaching me so many things through the years...
but i thought you'll be there when i fall into pieces, but you were helping me to fall...


this morning again, i woke up late :/
sorry Ken, another day perhaps =X
oh yea, Good Luck to Ken for tomorrow's basketball competition.!
you can do it man.! :) Cheering for you always !

i had my butt laid on the bed for the whole day i think :/
well, i did make some agar-agar :D which i don't think would turn out well :P

nothing really special today :/
so i'm gonna just stop here :)

Good Night and welcome the 11th :)

09062051

when you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me
everything's alright, when you're right here by my side

Today morning no people sms me for basketball - blame it on KEN :)
so then i helped mom around the house while mom helps me fix my laptop !

around 12.40, i went out for the gathering
reach Cempaka lrt station about 1pm + ? and waited for thier arrival
then we went to InHouse by Taxi :) *yay we were first!*

one by one they all came, but then no body said a thing ):
it was so bored until someone suggested a game :)

they were playing cards and i was on the phone with Xin :) *credit wasted alot thank you very much TT*
then they asked me to join in the game and so i did :)

it was so much fun :) but still, i don't have anything to talk to them - i'm unsociable O.O
play ha play ha, everyone wanted to go back already.
thanks CkNgai for treating everyone  :) so gentlemen of him :)  (he's driving a vios TT omgg)

and thanks AhDu for fetching me to Cempaka LRT.  - note this, he is damn gorgeous XD lengzhai dao 99!

so yeah, my day ended like that, just when i was ready for tuition, which is having a short nap... mom said she couldnt come back in time. woohoo! and then i was wide awake already. ! :)

thanks for today guys.! had a great time !

09060300

Thanks Liew for introducing me this song Big Bang - Make Love
its a really sweet song if a guy would sing this to a girl ><


been watching alot of MMVs, [Maple Movie Videos]
theres one that a guy wanted to give this girl a PigRabbit, but the another guy gave her another thing first..
he was so dissapointed.. omg ): from that moment, i started to cry
because i thought of H-I-M


i guess everything is moving slowly, and i guess he might be forgetting me already :)
it's ok, i'll move on :]

thanks all people who pui me these few days :)
especially Jie and Liew ;) love you guys !

so yeah, 3am in the morning, and i am here doing nothing XD
hahaha. good night folks :)

sleep tight <3

08060258

一个我 需要梦想 需要方向 需要眼泪
更需要 一个人来 点亮天的黑
我已经 无能为力 无法抗拒 无路可退
这无声的夜 现在的我 需要人陪

 Today after tuition, i went to pasar malam with Yumi
had fun time until i force her to go back ><

then i went to san qiu actually waited for Liew to finish work
but then RR say he come and fetch me wor, so i mai follow lor ...

end up, liew say he tired, coz too far, so he didn't go ):
haiz....

but the main point is... KUNG FU PANDA  si beh Cute wehh!! >oh mai goshh.. when he wanted to know who is his real father that time i almost cry
because last time when my parents didn't treat me fair, i always thought that i was adopted...
thank god i'm not like that now :) i have awesome parents!

after movie we went to InHouse and have a drink
not really fun because some were DATING, some were watching football, talking football
me,myself and i sitting there playing phone TT lonely...

then when boarded the car that time, suddenly hear the song  需要人陪
oh mai gosh, i almost cry... hold on my bag dao 99 so that i won't shed a tear TT

thanks Robin for fetch me go and come back :)
thanks all people pei me go watch movie!

07061328

很爱过, 很痛过, 我们为了彼此而活过




把你的信息,全都被删除掉...
把我们的回忆,都忘掉...


你那个大少爷脾气, 不喜欢就不喜欢
不能体谅下别人的吗...?


为了你, 留长了头发
为了你, 把态度都改完
为了你, 失去了我的朋友
为了你, 把我最喜欢打的篮球都放在后面


你为了我, 做过了什么...?
谢谢你曾经买了那么多可爱的东西给我
我很开心, 也很喜欢....


但是, 爱情... 不是用钱来买的...




你说你很伤, 你说你等我....
我不伤吗...? 现在是谁等谁... 不是你非我的吗...?
希望你和她会有个开始... 我觉得你们两个很适合 :)


加油吧....
再见...

06061145

你最近还好吗...?


are your feelings towards me fading away...?
remember to tell me, because i need time to give up on you.

today we went for a swim, it was kinda fun when we were playing the 1,2 juice and stuffs
but then HE kept appearing beside me no matter what :/ (should i be worried about this?)

after that only teacher tell me that today don't have tuition ): gek sei ngo.!
tomorrow replaced class !

then we went for food, at RNK. i suddenly thought of sitting to the end there,
where our place once was... but they insisted on sitting under the fan.

after that we went for basketball :) i ALMOST won when i went airball!
TT saddest moment !!


that's all for today i guess...
after going out, not even a word have i spoken to him
was waiting for him to find me, but not a word.
maybe he's just in his emo-state, or just too busy to remember me :)


whatevs, i'm not his who anyways right..... *hurt*
damn, hate you... -.-

05061647

ℓσνє мє ησт ___ 

you are always not in mood, i tried to make you smile

but your attitude towards me makes me hard to do it.

ℓσνє ιѕ ℓιкє α мσυтαιη,

нαя∂ тσ ¢ℓιмв.

вυт ση¢є уσυ gєт тσ тнє тσρ,

тнє νιєω ιѕ вєαυтιƒυℓ.

once, you were my life.

now, you're just a dream.

remember when you said you loved me forever?

remember when you said you're never leaving me? 

where were the promises ?

ι мιѕѕ уσυ ___

04060348

what a day :)

we went to Cameron Highlands today at 7am i suppose.
we stopped by Ipoh and ate breakfast then continue our journey to Cameron Highlands :)

you gotta love that place, know why?
BECAUSE IT'S FULL OF STRAWBERRIESSSS~ :)

seriously, it's like paradise to me ♥

although we didn't went to the strawberry farm, which says " Pluck Yourself "
haha, that made me laugh like an idiot in the car ><

we went to watch flowers :) somehow i'm in love with all kinds of flowers
but Chrysanthemums are still my favorite :)

i bought 3 things :) 2 strawberry keychain and a watermelon keychain :)
it's so pretty, i gotta buy !

so yeah, most of my time i spend it with sleeping
that is why now, 3.45am i am still not asleep !

imma midnight ghost in a midnight world it's not a midnight world if it's bright outside :P
LoL, suckish !


Picture Time :)

saw this by the road side of ipoh ! Heng Fatt  !

i think this is a chrysanthemum ?

these are not call sunflowers, these are call gerberas. lol

is this a sunflower or a gerberas? no idea :]

this is a pretty picture of a gerberas ! 

03061735

changed new background, although it's not as nice as the previous one
but everything is a change right ? :)

yesterday i started to Flu, i thought it was a awhile-then-gone Flu
but didn't think that i'm still having flu right now T.T damn...

yesterday i went to the movies with Leon,
it was fun, we watched Priest :))
oh mai gosh, so scary but nice also lar :)

so yeah, now i'm teaching people how to scold people
Lol, seriously la, don't be so weak :]

02061029

just woke up few minutes ago...

on laptop - went to youtube
suddenly i thought of hearing the song 梁文音 - 最幸福的事
but then i suddenly wanted to go to my account and search for videos
suddenly i found the video i made for Him...
"i need you" is a video i made when we both broke up because i had problems...
now is the second time we broke up, will he make a video for me??

i'll always look back, as i walk away
this memory will last, for eternally
and all of our tears will be lost in the rain
when i found my way back to your heart again

so meaningful right this song :)
it's call Queen of my Heart - Westlife

somehow, i'm missing him now...
missing our past... missing how we planned our future
missing every time when he hugs me, i feel that i'm the most lucky girl in the world

but everything of that i past...
he doesn't care anymore :)

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you were the one who left me and now you're waiting?
how did live became like that?? :)

01062011, new month...
i got to move on :) since you don't even care
don't every time say you still love me, if you do, you wont leave me.

i wont shed any tears for you anymore,
only shed tears of pitiful towards myself for still loving you.
I PITY MYSELF -.-

MOVING ON
without you


there may be secrets hidden behind this post, 
but it doesn't matter to him anyways. 
He gave up, i should too.

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this

this is

this is a

this is a post

this is a post about

this is a post about nothing

hahahahaha, suckaarrrr :)

yesterday we had a great party at Red Box :)

everyone was throwing cake at each other XD i didn't kena thou :) LUCKY ME ;]]

well, everyone's there just to have fun. why so angry about this and that? :)

i admit thou the songs were a little emotional, i cried many times, but i tried not to let anyone see..

thanks Liew and Arial for always accompany me :D

bet i'll bored to death if you guys weren't there :))

so yeah, Happy Day ;)

we wore so sexy bet guys are attracted to me XD hahahahahahahaha

picture time!!! :))

Yumi and Me :)

Arial and Me :)

Arial and Me, during Dinner :))

Arial and Me, at the Kroom Toilet XD

3 lengluis, just before leaving Asian Food

while we were waiting for the RICH PEOPLES  to come