Been thinking back about the past, thinking back 3 years ago.
How much it has changed me to look at the world differently now.
I still tear up every time I thought about it, but what can I do.
I never knew working would be so tiring, the commitment to provide for your family.
I love my family, I want the best for them but sometimes I just want HIM back.
I want to be in his arms just one more time, the kiss and the hug that he had always given to me.
The small little things that he provides means a lot to us, we just knew how to appreciate after he left.
Funny how the best times we spent together were in the hospital.
Going to see you everyday, helping you with your exercise
and talking about where we would go after you got better...
I really missed him a lot, I could cry every night whining for him to be back
but it doesn't make a different that his time has come to be back with the Lord.
I could do really silly prayers asking God to let me see him one more time, letting me feel his warm and saying that he is proud of what I have achieved.
These few days I've been really down, I cry every night just wanting to see him
But who can I tell these to, I don't want to worry my friends and family
I don't want people to take pity on me because they would never know how I'm feeling
I miss you daddy, I really miss you a lot.
I wish I could send you messages, even if you don't reply at least I know you received it.
I have a lot of things to tell you, I have a lot of things that I want to do with you
You promised to walk me down the aisle, but why did you break our promise.
how am I suppose to walk down now without you, without thinking about you.
But I promise you Daddy, I will take care of the family for you
I will love them like how you did, I will provide for them
I will give them the best . So don't worry daddy
I may cry sometimes, but I know I have to do it.
because I love them so much, just like how I still love you .
Enjoy yourself in heaven daddy, please wait for us to come
We might come one by one, but someday we will be reunited.
pray for us daddy, pray that we would walk in God's way
pray that we would always be blessed.
I love you Daddy, and I miss you so so much.
