So Yesterday ~

Its already been months..

since we broke up..

but today i realise..

i still miss him so terribly much..

even though i still chat with him everyday..

but i still have this painful feeling inside of me..

My life have been like this since we broke up..

everyday sad and crying...

feel like wanting to kill myself..

its even harder when i chat with him everyday,every night 24/7

but its best that we just be friends..

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Yesterday i went time square with Karen,Xiiao Li,Xiiao Mei,Xiiao B and his gang of friends. I reached there like about 11.20. Then i went searching for them. after that i found Karen and Xiiao Li. Karen and Xiiao Li wanted to find job, so i tag along with them, about an hour passed, they found 3 jobs, but they have to wait for the boss to call and confirm that the job is theirs.

After that, we went to Sungai Wang and walk awhile. I walk around trying to find jie's shop, but i forgot what shop already =.=" After that, we meet up Xiiao B and Xiiao Mei at the roller ring. Its so crowded in there, after that Xiiao B came and greet us. Ugh! Xiiao B is wearing the same thing as me =.=" he every time wears the same thing as me. I'm wearing a T-shirt inside,a sleeveless jacket and a pants with alot of pocket. Yes, he wore the same thing as me! I'm so scare that i will hurt Xiiao Li's feeling for she likes him alot.

Then we played few minutes,that Xiiao B only care about his gang and didn't care us at all. Not that i'm jealous or something, but we are the ones who called him out first, but they got all the attention. So i was fed up with him, i no mood to play,then Xiiao Li was like trying to cheer me up, but it wasnt working. Xiiao B also know what happend, and he tried to cheer me up as well, but it wasnt working either. Soon,i see Xiiao Li's facial expression, it shows that she's really sad and mood less.

I feel so bad, i'm the one mood less, but end up making her mood less. So i try to get back with Xiiao B, we chat and we laugh, but Xiiao Li's expression still the same. I asked myself again and again, why did i started to be mood less? Now making Xiiao Li mood less too. So then, i tried to make Xiiao Li laugh and smile, she smiled, but i know she gave a forced smile. I have no idea how to make her happy again, so i just showed her, i can get along with anyone just fine. When i was rollerblading with Xiiao B, i told him to go and cheer up Xiiao Li, so he did. They chat and chat, i can see how happy Xiiao Li is, her smile is so sweet. Soon, Xiiao Li joined us and played happily.

Then, we played the "Train" which the leader pulls every one all around the ring. It was fun at first, but then, worst things came. First,one of us dropped, then the other one dropped. But they just continue to play. Until my turn to pull, i don't know if my streng is too big or what, i pull them, too fast and Karen falled. Her skin was peeling off and it was Yuck! But then, she just continue played and soon, her beautiful sexy leg was ruined by Mua. She was bleeding already, but she just continued. Impressive huuh?

Its already 5pm, we decided to play awhile longer, because i have to go back at 6pm.Then, Karen said she wanted to buy cookies for her beloved little brother, so we decided to go out. We said our good byes to Xiiao B and went off. While Karen was buying cookies, mommy called and ask us to meet up at the sungai wang main entrance. So, i was rushing, didn't want my mommy to wait. Karen took a very long time to decide, me and Xiiao Li was crazy about cookies, but we don't have money to buy, we both were like scolding Karen to hurry up, so else we'll rob the shop. haha. Xiiao Mei is the kindest person, she saw how me and Xiiao Li starving for cookies, she bought a pack of cookies just for us. So sweet right? But she didn't pick the Double Chocolate Cookies,which is my favorite, and she picked the nuts, which i hate nuts. So only Xiiao Li ate the cookies, i didn't. Sorry Xiiao Mei.

So we reach the main entrance, but din't see my mommy. Few seconds passed, she saw us and she lead us to the car which daddy was driving. Ugh, she could just asked us to go the time square and wait for her, then it started to rain. Mommy was walking very fast, but because Karen's leg is hurt, we have to wait for her. Then, when we walk to the bridge where its some how connected to Time Square and Sungai Wang, there were many liars there. Those sweet talk and bluff your money those people. When i was walking up, one of them pull my hand as ask me to wait, i push him and stare at him, he was like, "ok ok, I'm going away, don't hurt me" haha. i guess i have my mommy's eye, daddy calls it "The Eye of the Tiger".

Walk and walk and walk, finally we reached daddy's car. Mommy says daddy has to fetch my Big brother to tuition first, so we went back to my house first. Then half way going, we send Karen back first, cause her house is in Cahaya. After that, my brother went tuition, Xiiao Mei went back and only left me and Xiiao Li. we chat and chat and chat, we like know each other for a long time already. Haha. i guess i'm great in making friends. After that, Xiiao Li went home. Daddy says there's trafic jam, so i decided to take a nap first, its better than hearing my father lecture right? haha.
Then reach home, i did the same thing as usuall, took a nice hot bath, watch tv, play computer and chat with Christopher the leng zhai . haha.

So once again, the day is save, thanks to Aiko Chan. =3